Back to the past

I wonder if it is possible to change back to what one used to be. I so wish I could be Miika from 2008 or 2009 again. He was a nice guy who wanted to know people and was pretty much happy and excited about things.

Now I'm not even close of being that guy. It bothers me but I guess that is what life does to people. Maybe I will have the same qualities later on but I guess I'll never be the same guy again. What a shame :/

Ho ho ho

Well it's Christmas time again. Luckily it doesn't really mean anything more for me than a three-day weekend at this point. Christmas spirit is pretty far from my mind but that's alright. Maybe it'll come back when/if I have kids some day.

I would like to bitch about women but maybe it's not wise to do so in this state of mind. Guess I have to forget everything I thought I knew about them and maybe become a monk or something. Life would be so much easier that way.

Well anyway happy holidays if you have the spirit to celebrate. I really don't.
Hopefully next post would be about something nice instead of bitching all the time but I can't help it at the moment.

The waiting game

My life is now pretty much just waiting. I'm waiting for the spring, to figure out an idea for my thesis, to care about things again, to see what my life will become and so on. It's not the best way to live I can tell you but it's the best I can get out of myself right about now.

C'mon spring. Get here already

Work, music and Maisa. The only three things keeping me sane at the moment. Autumn really isn't my time.