Asking for advice

This is just a quick question for the possible readers. Any ideas how to get excited about the future? Or at least to stop "being afraid" of it?

What about all the good stuff?

How come it's much easier to concentrate on the bad stuff in your life than all the good stuff? Or is it just about choosing which one to concentrate on? Well anyway it seems that I'm doing it and maybe a bit too much lately. I know my life is pretty good in general, but still I just like to mope about the bad stuff. And not all of it is even bad for certain.

I have some friends who are having problems and for some reason it really bums me out. I guess I shouldn't care that much but I just don't know how to do that yet. The main thing in my own life that isn't exactly making me happy is my thesis and eventually graduating. I have pretty much avoided doing my thesis so far because after I get it done, I will graduate and then it's end of another era for me. For the last three years I have had a plan for the future and that was to graduate, but now that it's getting closer it just leads to the unknown again. If I want to get a job in a library, most likely I have to move somewhere and basically start from scratch again. New city, no friends and just the job. And it's not even a sure thing that I would get a job. And I'm not really sure if I really want to work in a library.

I guess one could look at the situation as one full of opportunities, but I just can't seem to get to that state of mind. At least not yet. Well I guess nobody really likes change but it's inevitable and we just have to deal with it.

But there are some good things in my life too. The first two that come to mind are a part-time job which I love and my new baby Iita. She is quite young (about 19 weeks now) and full of energy and life :) Maybe some of it will rub off on me too.