Living in the moment

Why is it so hard for some people to live in the moment? Since I'm one of those people, I'm not really sure if it's a good or a bad thing to live in the moment, but I think it would make life more fun if nothing else. I don't think I have ever been a person who could live life to the fullest and all that. I just tend to think ahead and stress about stuff and so forth.

At the moment it comes across with my studies. No surprise here, my thesis still isn't progressing and part of the reason is that I'm lazy and stuff like that but part of it is also that I think about the future and what I want to do after I graduate. So far I don't have a clue. And that is part of the reason why I dodge doing schoolwork, because if I do it, I will graduate and then what? It comes back to being afraid of the unknown I guess, but I won't go into it this time. But it's stupid to think about what I want to do after I graduate since I have the rest of my life to think about it afterwards, but for some reason I can't help it.

Now the living in the moment part has come across earlier in my life as well. To some degree I think it's one of the (many) reasons I'm still single for example. I just keep thinking about what will happen the next day, the next week or even years from now and while sometimes it can be a good thing, while trying to live in the moment, too much thinking can also screw things up for you. I think that only times, that I have been able to live in the moment, I have been drunk, which is sad, and it hasn't always happened even then.

I remember a while back (okay it was last year or something like that) I wrote on my finnish blog how I would like to live in the moment. "To dance with the music and live without inhibitions even for a while, but my brain won't let me do it." Well few weeks back I went to see a band I like a lot and, well I wasn't exactly dancing, but I was in the front just hopping around, enjoying the music and the energy and making a fool out of myself and it was just great :) For a while there I really was living in the moment and I loved every minute of it. Now the question remains, how can I get those moments more often?

If anyone out there has any ideas, I'd love to hear them :)

Anyway, I guess I should get to bed and try to start working on my thesis and worry about the future later on. Not sure if that will happen but one can always hope.

And by the way, the band was Wedding Crashers and they have awesome live gigs :)